Friday, July 9, 2010

Home

Home.
There is nothing like being home.
I just spent ten blissful days in my hometown. Celebrating the Fourth, enjoying family time, seeing old friends and relaxing.

While it's not the house I grew up in; I feel at home in my parents' home. I leave my bed unmade, and dirty clothes on the floor. I nap on the couch, and cook in the kitchen. It's so nice to go home. To the place where I'm from. To the people who knew me when I was pigeon-toed and four-eyed.

And yet, as I returned home to California yesterday. I sat on my bed snuggling Charlotte, while I gazed out the window into the canyon behind our home. It was at that moment I took a deep breath, truly relaxed and realized I am home. There is nowhere I feel more myself, more confident, more comfortable than right here.

I don't know exactly where I'm going with this (is it obvious?) but the word Home is possibly one of the most important words in my vocabulary. So much more than a physical location, to me home is a feeling. An emotion. The people I love. The opportunity to be completely myself--to sing out of tune, cry, dance, play, and let a curse word (or two) slip--all without being judged.

I guess what I'm saying is it was great to go home for a visit; and now it's great to be back home again. So thank you to all the people in my different "homes." I love you all dearly. You are the definition of the word home to me.


P.S. These pictures have absolutely nothing to do with my rambling thoughts. Just a picture of H from our barbecue up the canyon; and Little C's "official" 8 month photo. More from our trip and other fun stuff later.

xo

2 comments:

Ashley said...

Loved this post. I am so jealous of the view out your windows by the way... it's gorgeous.

Wahzat Gayle said...

I so understand this... I am always to happy to go home to 'my' family to soak up some love and Trini spirit ( i am originally from a smaller island/country called Trinidad and Tobago) but I am also happy to be home with 'my' family meaning hubbie and children here in JA. I remember being shock by this revelation in myself that I consider somewhere that wasn't Trinidad home and as with you once I had my babies with me home is anywhere :)
Glad you had a great time soaking up some family love :)

(there I am as usual taking up too much of your comment space LOL)